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LYRICS:

Hook

Always on the sidelines

didn’t even try to

be an MVP cause my spirit didn’t align there

I was into beat making

on my laptop

writing songs on the weekends

felt so different from my family

but still showed up to gatherings so faces that I rarely see

know of my existence as the firstborn in my family

my mother who was wild

had a son and mellowed out

all the pressure passed down

from the oldest to the offspring

Verse 1:

parties out in san jose

every summer 88

degrees by the pool

almost drowned

vision blurry then

family was drowning too

..even though they all knew

how to swim, intoxicated,

escalation occurred

but i didn’t really mind it though

I was 15 years old

observing and keeping my head low

so they don’t get me involved

i was concerned with the music

writing songs, being a producer

at least in that, I can speak thoughts

and be more progressive than arguments lost

raised with the feelings of feeling so lost

lost in the validation, what’s the cost?

lost in the cost of hobbies that I hated

but didn’t want disappointment so I stayed in

and then I met someone I wrote her a song

never released it just sent it to her

she saw the vision, and said keep it going

i found inspiration at this very moment

i’m

texting her at this party

using time,

that I could be with my cousins

asking her to sing a song with me

i still hear the screaming

and the laughter it’s a scene

man I love my family

though I’m like a different seed..

Hook

cause I’m

Always on the sidelines

didn’t even try to

be an MVP cause my spirit didn’t align there

I was into beat making

on my laptop

writing songs on the weekends

felt so different from my family

but still showed up to gatherings so faces that I rarely see

know of my existence as the firstborn in my family

my mother who was wild

had a son and mellowed out

all the pressure passed down

from the oldest to the offspring

Verse 2:

yeah that muse i found was love

felt it when we made contact

didn’t express it how i wanted to

I should have told you that

I had feelings for you then

before a triangle began

and I took it out on pen

songs i’d never drop again

with the state of mind i’m in now

realizing the tongue biting I criticize my fam for having is instilled in me

and i’m still working on it maybe i just got to keep

my distance from them for a little so i can find peace

the sidelines benefitted me so I can just be me

nothing was mandatory had creative liberty

my mother told me “CJ watch out for your family”

and I took that to heart, though i was only 15

I grew so loyal to the bullies and the enemies

never handed back defense

cause i

didn’t want to get backhanded

by the ones that I would die for

the ones that I have lied for

the ones who opened up their doors

when my mother needed shoulders

and i guess I feel so lost

about drama at 22

7 years later

i’m still writing songs

instead of seeing you

but still i got a muse

a nice ass house and a better view

sucks to say, I mean no hate

in my absence, i feel some gain…